| I am paying attention and I am pissed off |
[Mar. 6th, 2006|10:42 am] |
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| | DN! | ] |
Report: Bush Admin Launching Campaign Against Government Leaks
Back in the United States, the Washington Post is reporting the Bush administration has launched a new campaign to target government sources and the journalists they speak to. According to the Post, the campaign includes several FBI investigations, polygraph testing inside the CIA and a warning to prosecute reporters under espionage laws. The investigations have reportedly affected dozens of employees in different government intelligence agencies. In one media case, FBI agents and a federal prosecutor questioned a reporter at the Sacramento Bee newspaper. The reporter had cited sealed court information in articles about terror suspects. The Bush administration launched the campaign after leaks led to the publication of reports detailing the CIA’s secret prison network and the National Security Agency’s warrantless domestic spy program. New York Times Executive Editor Bill Keller said: "There's a tone of gleeful relish in the way they talk about dragging reporters before grand juries, their appetite for withholding information, and the hints that reporters who look too hard into the public's business risk being branded traitors.” |
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| death to the Neo Cons |
[Mar. 2nd, 2006|10:37 am] |
Those were the recent words of the nation's top nuclear weapons executive, Linton Brooks. Here in New Mexico - the center of the country's nuclear weapons program - a new nuclear age appears to be on the horizon. Bush recently asked Congress for $27 million to help jumpstart the country's first new nuclear weapons program in two decades. The money will be used to fund a competition between the Los Alamos and the Lawrence Livermore laboratories to find and design a new generation of nuclear bombs to replace the country's entire nuclear arsenal.
Meanwhile in another major development in the country's quest for new nuclear weapons, the U.S. and Britain conducted a joint underground nuclear test at the Nevada Test Site last week. Anti-nuclear activists including the mayors of Hiroshima and Nagasaki in Japan denounced the test, the first in nearly two years. In Hiroshima, the peace watchtower at the Peace Memorial Museum -- which displays the number of days since the last nuclear test -- was reset to zero. |
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| I love Raging Grannies |
[Feb. 15th, 2006|11:10 am] |
5 “Raging Grannies” Arrested at Anti-War Protest Near DC
Just outside of Washington, DC, five women with the anti-war group the Raging Grannies were arrested Tuesday at a protest outside a military recruitment office. The women were arrested after announcing they intended to enlist. They chanted: "if someone must die in Iraq, let it be the old.” They were later released without charge. The protest was one of several held across the country Tuesday, including in Florida, California, and New York. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 13th, 2006|01:01 am] |
her I am updating again. half past the time when I should have. I have been trying to find all the reasons why I am. to tel the truth it feels like making excuses, to blame my parents, to find fault with my lack of whatever. I guess that the only way to be myself is to realize my desires and passions, then to pursue them. because if I don't then I won't live my dreams. keep my thoughts ever present and make sure that I don't forget that I need to follow my dreams. I suppose that this is not so hard when It comes to many things but then It comes to girls and I flounder and I don't wanna be the thing that I am. then i turn to the kind of thing that impoves my mood and I have to say thank you Tom Waits.
So Ravi Shankar, I will not be seeing him on his world wide tour because I found out to late but that dosen;t matter because I won;t be in the same hemisphere when he's here or there. what luck. I suppose there are others I just don't know about them and I need some of his music now. mmmm I suppose that this migh have soimething to do with Mary being in India but I will never forget the feeling that the concert produced inside of me. And while I will never forget Mary que je ne pense pas trop de Mary.
I had my hair cut at Jamie Lee and Co. and I got some new sneakers.
Here I am in OLY, WA signing off till whenever,. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 1st, 2006|08:34 pm] |
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| | Nick Drake | ] |
So I am writing letters to Mary Drew even though I can't send them to her. First it would take to long to get there and second I am not sure I want her to see what I written. but It feeligns good to put myu thoughts on paper. but I am thinking that maybe I should send them to her as I leave for France. She'll be back by then with an address and I'll be leaving not to return for awhile. Your thoughts are welcome. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 30th, 2006|05:45 pm] |
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| | Carla Brumi | ] |
So I have been thinking about the idea of being the president of Les Etates Unis and I finally realize the myth of power of the individualist. The problems of society cannot be fixed by a singular person. ANd the Myth is that individuals such as the robber barons or captians of industry could change the world with a simple word. And while leaders are important the most important part is the people and their part in society. without the people nothing would ever change for the better for them. the protests during the Veitnam War were in part important to ending the War. And even now the protests against the Illegal Iraq War continue to gather strenght the people are the greatest threat to the established power structure. It is the people to who will find a way in the darkness to ensure their survival and protect themselves from those who would conspire to control their lives through economic mnipulation.
So I have to say that being president is not my goal but to be one of many seeking to find a way in the darkness as an individual among the people. |
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| TV, Indian Food, last night not in this order. |
[Jan. 27th, 2006|08:14 pm] |
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| | Bright Eyes: When the president talks to God | ] |
huh? it firday night and this week has gone by fast. the third week of classes is over. Still don't have aplace in Paris. I am supposed to be studing for class and jujitsu but I felt like I needed a break so I took today off for me and did very little in the way of work but now I feel guilty that I have done nothing worth while. So after I finish this entery I am going to do something for class.
Last night I went out and had an okay time at the eastside. I saw some olde classmates and talked about olde times and then picked up a couple of games of pool with some current classmates. I stayed out later than I thought I would. came home and went to bed. everytime I get into my car when I have had even one drink I feel like I am going to be pulled over. I think I am being a bit paranoid but atleast I am drinking not so much.
I am really trying to cut down on my television time but it like Miranda told me once "TV is just as addicting as herion." I can always make it until 3PM but then it becomes a struggle to stay clean or relativily so until something good comes on. I have noticed that I can take in 4-8 hours on days when I have no commitments to school or Jujitsu. but with that time I would never feel tha way I do about school "always being behind" I wouldn't have to make excuses for not finishing my work or not being perpared for French or Jujitsu. Yea I am going to control my addiction.
When I do that then I'll have more time to start painting again.
Also I have been having a craving for Indian. I realized it has been over a year since I last ate at an Indian Resturant. I am planning to go to Gateway to India next Friday for the buffet. and I think I shall get some tandoori to go. I should see my parents to it's been almost a month since I last saw them. |
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| I had a surreal dream |
[Jan. 25th, 2006|05:22 pm] |
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| | Dry mouth | ] |
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| | Telephone Douche | ] |
So I had this really odd dream. I think that I was in a Mall and then I saw Mary and she saw me and mpotioned for me to come close. She was hanging with a friend of hers a black girl I had never before seen and then we were at her house(the black girl's) and she was talking about some thing and I was looking at the fireplace then I heard the black girl talking about her car and she mentioned that she had 5 grams of cocaine that we could do if we wanted to . I was kinda interested in the car but only a little. SO I asked why she wastalking so much about her car and she sadi that laura was thinking about increasing the displacement of her car's engine and I thought that this was weird. I watched as the black girl took her car out of the garage and it took a long time. Because it had a hing in the middle and was as big as a Grey Hound Bus. I went back inside and Looked at Mary. Mary said was going to do the cocaine and then I went outside on the porch and watched a dog try to break through a fence only feet in front of me. It was a Collie with golden brown fur. I felt sad.
The next thing I know I was sitting up in bed feeling a bit scared. |
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| it's all Fucked up |
[Jan. 20th, 2006|08:34 pm] |
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| | depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Elliott Smith; Somebody I used to Know | ] |
yeah life moves on and I keep worrying and stuff. SO I really had not a clue about what my class was goin' to do once we got to France and I guess that I was so wrappped up in the going to France part and being in France part that I took for grasnted that it would be something that I would care about. ONly to findout that I hate these people and that I already have a ticket to Europe only makes things worse. I should inform you that ethnographical work for me is prehaps the least interesting and least important thingI could think of. I don;t care about the things that the avergae french man does day in and out. creating a record of common things in great detail is dull. I have read several enthographic books during my time at evergreen and I still uncertian to what use the work that individuals have put into them benefits society. perhaps I complain too much
I still feel cheated and decieved and betrayed, the last only by myself.
So My friend Mary is leaving for India and I feel sad I am sure that I will miss her. I feel like crying. and school is pissing me off and I feel unsure of my studies and the future in general. I think I need a break from something I just don;t know what or what will help. Also I feel alone in class. It's like people just tolerate me. oh and recently I have been feeling less sexy(attractive) than usual. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 16th, 2006|04:59 pm] |
I here I am sick on a holiday. I am not sure what part is worse the fact that I can't enjoy the free time or that I don't have enough strenght ability to concentrate or that a friend of mine is going to India for 7-8 weeks and I I can't seem to contact her. I love to see her once again before she leaves. I hate being sick last night was really intensehot and cottonmouth.
I talk again later possibly tomorrow I hope It's al gone by then. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 31st, 2005|03:24 pm] |
so last night after watching an old report on Frontline about the pornography Industry. I began to think about the difference between a people in a porno and people walking the streets. and after a little bit of time I think that the only difference is that the people in the pornos have signed contracts that define their wages and obligations, but then I realized that there was one other difference and that being that the people in the pornos would also be resold to hundreds of people without compensation for their popularity. No residuals.
I find it odd that an individual can pay another individual or group of individuals to preform sex acts. then make copies and sale the copies to others. yet an individual can not pay for the same sex acts without a contract. I don't see how this could be. it seems to me that the best thing to do is to allow "night walkers" but force them to draw-up contracts and to report their income.
It seems a little simplistic though. |
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| Cheers to that |
[Dec. 27th, 2005|12:57 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | love | ] |
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| | tired | ] |
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| | John Vanderslice | ] |
SO I had a really sexy dream last night and I have to say that I didn't get it on. instead it was comprised of several differnt scenes in which a girl and I were making-out. and although there was clotheing removal there was never a time for sex itself.
Christmas was nice to spend with my family and things went well. I cooked up some eggnog from scratch and helped with the meals. We all opened presents and had a relaxing goood time. went out to see a local Holiday light show and talked about current events.
I am looking forward to this next quarter at school and hopefully I'll make some more friends. I have been living in Olympia for an entire year now as of today. It seems that I will soon be leaving for greener pastures. I finally feel settled enough around here and I have a few friends but I need a few more and I am not sure if the friends I have made here will be with me very long after I leave. I suppose that the most important thing to do is to try to keep in contact with them myself. I just have to remember to write or call to ensure that I have done my part in keeping up.
AS for my leaving I will be taking a flight to london's Heathrow airport on the 2nd of April 2006 I won't arrive until the 3rd but I will spend a few days in london and then it's off to Paris for a couple more days and then to Rennes, France I sapend 3 weeks witha host family and then it's back to Paris for 5 weeks. My return flight leaves from london so I'll have to get back there to catch the flight . |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 26th, 2005|01:20 pm] |
| Your Birthdate: April 15 | 
You take life as it is, and you find happiness in a variety of things.
You tend to be close to family and friends. But it's hard to get into your inner circle.
Making the little things wonderful is important to you, and you probably have an inviting home.
You seek harmony with others, but occasionally you have a very stubborn streak.
Your strength: Your intense optimism
Your weakness: You shy away from exploring your talents
Your power color: Jade
Your power symbol: Flower
Your power month: June |
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| nothing ventured nothing gained |
[Dec. 17th, 2005|04:04 pm] |
something to say. I know there was something I wanted to say but now it's gone. well Here's something differnet. Cleaning is a never ending task. as soon as I get done with the dishes I need to eat and then I have to clean again and of course there are the floors and the bathroom and the clothes and everything between.
So next week I am going to try have a natural high. I am going to go for 48 hours without sleep, food or any drugs. maybe I'll see something or have a revalation or some kind. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 7th, 2005|05:50 pm] |
SO recently I was paid a personal debt in a couple of two dollar bills and thinking that this was a fun thing to do I decided get some of my own. I regularly frequent a bar in Oly, WA that serves $2 drinks all night on Thursdays. I think that maybe I should start paying in $2 bills it will be easy to keep track of each drink and with only one bill to hand over there will never be any change.
Also I am a bit worried that someone might not know what a $2 bill is, because so few are in circulation.
here's a link to show that just because it's real money doesn't mean that people think it's real. http://www.snopes.com/business/money/tacobell.asp |
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| thoughts of yours are truly useless |
[Nov. 21st, 2005|09:14 pm] |
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well here I am sitting at home again. It's the start of Tahnksgiving break and I am watching TV like a dope. But it's not all bad I mean I get to experince the magic of Santa Cluas in every goddamn commerical on TV. It great when the majority forces it's opinioons and believes on the masses. I take great pride in not being one of those individuals(in the majority) sometimes and this is definitively one of them. |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 18th, 2005|11:08 pm] |
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| | tired | ] |
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| | All Girl Summer Fun Band: Later Operator | ] |
So I saw the new harry potter flick last night at a mid-night sceening. I wasn't thinking that I would go, in fact I was not really sure when it was coming out in theatres. I was simply invited. ten dollars later I was in the theatre and waiting for the lights to dim and I was suprized when the lights did not go out altogether. I was a little worried that with the little bit of light I would become distracted by the movments of teh people around me. I was bothered too much.
Saw the movie with the girl I have been seeign recently. things went well I guess I thought it was really hot in the theatre. One of my friends told me it was just the rum but I found that hard to believe. I have never felt that way from drinking, if anything I might feel colder.
We all arrived home at about 3:10 AM (in the moring) and then I walked my suedo-date home. -small peck good night- We were both really tired. I suppose that I should just say her name, Mary.
Now I spent the day today studing French and things are looking up for school. I have an enormous amount of writing to do over the Thanksgiving week break. several papers to write; several Final Questions to answer(multiply pages each); and of course the work that I put off becuase it wasn't due until the end of the quarter. I am really going to be tired after this week but it will be worth it. The only real problem I had concetrating on work is that I continue to let my mind wander to the girl that I am seeing.
Spring Quarter in France still looms in the near future. I am really pumped up about it.
I have been wondering; Since I am not in a committed relationship with Mary and since her friend told me that she problably not ready for a relationship right now, would it be okay to allow myself to explore other possiblities? I don't want to put this one at risk and at the same time I don't want to spend time that proves to be a waste. your input is valued. please respond. |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 9th, 2005|04:49 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | confused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Kings of Convenience | ] |
So time to up date. So as anyone who reads my enteries knows I worry about social situtation on a fairly frequent schedule and the "dinner Date" on Sunday is no differnt. I suppose that I should be grateful that she didn't just walk out at any point and that we hung out for 7 hours give or take. SO this leads me to believe that things went well and that she had feelings for me already But, and this is what I think about generally, I worry about things I can't really ask about since it was a first(perhaps) date I don't want to appear socially lacking by asking questions such as "What did you mean when you said that you were drunk while we were kissing?"
I need someone to listen to my ravings and then calmly tell me that everything will work out. Of course this might not be of any real help.
I think that the best part of the evening was when we kissed. I was overtaken by the physical sensation of the kiss. I have to say that I had forgotten what it is like to momentaryily bind lips together. I want, no I need it again. I have waited too long for this .................
MMM that sounds a little bizarre. But I think it is a fair account of my feelings recently. |
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| Nerves? |
[Nov. 6th, 2005|03:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | very nervous/excited | ] |
| [ | music |
| | John Vanderslice | ] |
So Here I am sitting at home and wondering if this is really dinner and a movie is really happening and here I find myself thinking about one possible outcome of this thing. I am of course thinking about sex. I am wondering if I should be going to purchase condoms. I tend to have very low expectations about what I percieve to be "romantic encounters". I still have yet to decide if she is interested or not. Of course "decide" is code for realize. SO I am really wondering about the sex before I know anything. I don't foresee any other use for condoms in the near future and all though they tend to remain viable for several years the last ones I had aquired recently expired. I had always thought that 2005 was a long ways off but I suppose that I just kidding myself. Like I wouldn't need them again in my life time.
I guess I want pity. I also want to never be uncertian and that is perhaps the best and most unlikely thing to happen. I like to plan and now I can't plan! I just want a first draft plan and if things don't follow then I can punt, I can fly by the seat of my pants, I can play it by ear, I can deal with the unexpected but only in the present. I am not sure how to plan for the uncertian. I suppose that I can't.
I know that this sounds funny but I really don't know anything about condoms. I mean I don't know any guys that I trust to talk about these things. let alone the kind of money to splurg on them and then try them out. what is there to know? is there anything to know? Websites only want to sell you crap. WEll most of them. |
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